Tomorrow we have: doxorubicin (boo), vincristine (hiss), aspariganase (ouch), intrathecal methotrexate (requiring general anaesthetic), total brain radiation (which I dont even want to think about), 6mp (strawberry flavoured chemo) and ODT prednisone (steroids, and lots of them).
Scott had a bit of a breakdown earlier, the anaesthetic scares him, and he's also very nervous about starting radiation and now that we are starting to find routine he knows that 2 or 3 days from now the pains will start.
My poor old mum is going to face a baptism of fire tomorrow, pediatric oncology can be a very depressing and heartbreaking place. The sad thing is, after a short while you become part of it, the horror becomes normal and no longer shocking. You need to give yourself a bit of a shake now and then and remind yourself that whilst cancer may be natural it is not normal in a child. The odds of Scott getting t-cell are about 1 in a million I believe. People say you find your "new normal", well I'll be damned if I will ever accept this as OUR normal!
Its like a real bad trip.