Today I did something which scares the bejeesus out of me. I made an appointment to see the doctor for my Well Woman!!!! I have only been to the doctor once since Scott was diagnosed with leukemia. It was a very quick visit, a simple request for something awesome to dull the emotional pain and panic attacks and I was gone, vowing never again to see a doctor. Maybe its normal for parents of children suddenly diagnosed with a life-threatening disease to develop a phobia for all things medical, I don’t know, all I know is that I am horrified at the thought. (The only reason I made the appointment is because of the terrifying case of a very young woman in the UK who now has only weeks to live because of cervical cancer). I also believed that if I had my check up before I was 40 I could avoid a mammogram. So, I called, made my appointment for next week, confirmed that I could get a xanax refill during the Well Woman, clearly stated that I was still under 40 and didn’t need a mammogram only to be told that Health Insurers now cover 1 scan between the ages of 35-39 and that I would be getting one. Shit! Bad, bad news.
David has also been hassling me (and I know he means well) to have an annual check-up. LOL. I don’t think so. I know my blood pressure is beautiful (95 over 56 this morning) and so is my cholesterol. I don’t want anyone listening to my lungs and I certainly don’t want anyone looking at my blood.
But whilst this experience with pediatric leukemia and all the horrors it entails may have left me cold at the very idea of any medical evaluation, it has certainly opened my eyes on disease prevention and food. Look at what I had for my tea (dinner) ….
It is juiced broccoli, carrots, apples, lime, lemon, a big hunk of ginger and an orange! Yes I drank it and yes it was foul. This has been my diet lately along with muesli, nuts, soy milk, berries and smoothies (and chocolate, icecream and cake) and this is what Scott has to look forward to in 8 weeks. It’s got to be better than chemo, surely? Speaking of which, time to wake Scott up for his 6mp.